Shut and sleep with me, Come on why don't you sleep with me.
Shut and sleep with me, uh-huh and sleep with me.
Shut and sleep with me, Come on why don't you sleep with me.
Shut and sleep with me, uh-huh and sleep with me.


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Rada Rada! A little up date. I recently have been going threw alot of drama. I'm in love. I dropped 40 pounds. I haven't been drawing much. My friends are still my life. Got my cartilage pierced. Thinking about getting a tattoo soon. I'm now 72% muscle (Beast mode<3). Me and my mom have stopped fighting. I cant trust my sister. And Im still on my path of self destruction<3 and I'm having fun.


My bitchiness is still here, along with my rage. Its just calmed down a little bit but I'm still willing to beat the fuck out of anyone if challenged. I'm no scrawny ass toothpick size bitch. I'm tall thick, muscular, i'm going to kill you, bitch<3. And my boyfriend thinks its hot XD<3 Shhh.. dont tell him but i could take him down if i wanted tooo >] jk jk. love you XD. I'm in a very relaxed mood right now :3. I was listening to slipknot so it calmed my nervous so its all good. I quit smoking well its not like i was smoking everyday. It was like once every six weeks ,but I stopped cause i thought it was stupid XD plus my smoking buddy can't smoke any more XD.


I feel so mellow. Like idk like im stoned XD not really I wished. Um Thanksgiving sucked, Drama drama drama lets not talk about it. I'm suppose to be getting a phone for my birthday. Zombie party ahead. Though now thinking about it i really do want to fight somebody im being very pugnacious right now. What ever.

Well Peace my Homie-g dawgs skillet bisect on the flipside<3

This weekend was one of the worst, and the last fucking thing I need was my mom to pull this bullshit on me. I dont fucking lie to her and she thinks im lieing. I haven't lied to her in over 9 years. Yea thanks for being there for me when i needed you the most mom. I'm glade you dont listen to me when I say i have practice three times and you assume i ran off with my boyfriend. Thanks for doing the whole lieing bullshit to my face and making it seem like everything was okay but you turn around and stab me in the back. You think im so dark and demonic, you think im some freak of nature, you think Im lieing to you all the time. You just dont listen, Maybe if you did once in awhile you'd understand me. I know I've told you a billion times I dont like coke or spicy food. You dont even fucking know me anymore. I talk but you dont listen. Where are you when im telling you something is wrong? Where are you when im crying and stressed? You tell me to suck it up if you see me cry ,but you don't notice i dont cry unless i have a really good damn reason. You dont ask me whats wrong, your just push me away. When I need you, I talk to you, I tell you, You dont listen, and to me it seems like you dont care. YOU DONT LISTEN. You think alex is so bad ,but you want to know something MAYBE IF YOU LISTEN TO ME. You would notice that he is there alot more for me then you are. I know you pay for my cloths and feed me ,but i need more then physically being there, I need you to listen to me understand. Your my mom aren't you? I dont even know if you love me anymore. You say you'd kill somebody if anything happened to me? Really really? It dosen't seem that way anymore for all the things thats have happened. You know when lauren was locked out of her house kicking and screaming for someone to let her in and there was someone home. Yep thats how i feel. You abandon me in my dreams to die or be killed, You say your only doing this stuff for the best for me. Have you ever stopped and asked me? Have you ever asked me 'How was your day?' or "Why are you upset?". I know you just want to relax and get rid of us and have a new life with larry. I understand that so would I if i was you ,but if i was you. I'd understand I have kids ,like you do ,but you know it dosen't seem that way. Its just if you'd only listen to me, if you'd only listen alot would of been prevented. I know if you ever read this, you'd beat me, or scream at me. but i doubt you'd even read this line cause you would of already lost your temper. It seems like you dont care to know. Do you?

:/? What the fucking is going on?

Im tired of the same old same old.


Im in a rut
Its making me sick

I need to do something totally out of the box
Destroy something get a tattoo a piercing


FUck I dont know I just want out.
Nothing is making sense anymore
Everything is the same
Its a fucking dream and Im stuck
Every day


Wake up
Shower
Get dressed
Brush teeth
Do hair
Go to school
Hang in the breeze way with lauren
Mess around Abit with Alex
Got to Class
Go to second period
Go to third period
Go to band
Go to Ms. Case's for lunch
Same people still in the room
Go to 5th period
Sleep in class
See Alex after Class
Go to 6th period
Se alex after class
Then Go to 7th
Same rute to the bathroom in front of band hall
See alex Tell him bye
Go to band practice after school
Spend 2 hours there
Go home at 6:40 or so
Come home
Find food
Go to my room and do homework
Then check myspace and play wow
Wait for alex to call
Talk to Alex and Lauren tile 10
Go to sleep
Wake up


I need something
Something amusing to my inner self
Im tired of this
Sanity is driveing me insane
Im freaking the fuck out
I'm tired of these faces
They are all the same
Everyone Looks the same
Something needs to be different something
and explosion
or or
Idk
But I'm freaking out
Everything is so Blah
Its all the same
I want something different
Wild
Back to the old Kaiti
Where around every corner is something new
idk
I'll figure it out
Hopefully

I never edit my photos ever, when you see them on here thats how it comes, Some of my earlyer work is photoshoped ,but all the new ones aren't. I use the light around me to make my photo awesome. SO do I get some credit or is it just luck, or you just dont give a fuck?

To be honest No I'm not. Yea I'm dating Alex, Yes I like him. He is a good guy, and cares for me, makes me happy. And I know he has to be happy or he wouldn't be still with me. I understand where my mom is coming from ,but what do you expect with having a daughter that is exactly like you? Alex means a lot to me, Not only as a boyfriend ,but as a person and a friend. Someone I've connected with a bond of friendship instead of lust and greed. I don't really care if you are angry with me or your going to spread lies, or try to start a fight. I'm just going to ignore you cause nothing can change my opinion of what I have to say about how I really feel. So say your breath, stop spreading bullshit, I'm happy, Life is fine, And I wish you happiness as well.


Loven' smiles,
Kaiti<3